Nighttime thoughts

I miss him so badly at night.... I didn't think I could ever fall so much in love with someone.  I'm 46 years old, been in love a handful of times.... but this is so completely different than anyone I've ever 'thought' I was in love with.  We have the same ideas, dreams, hopes, interests, hobbies and just a very real attraction to each other.  But we can't be together, he belongs to someone else.  I wish that while she was gone that I could have held onto him so tight that even she couldn't take him away again.